Saturday, February 22, 2014

Bakit hindi ako crush ng crush ko?

As I pondered upon the above mentioned line, it inflicted pain for me realizing that I can't always get what I want. The fear of not being loved in return, that's what I'm afraid of. Huhu:'(( It's not that I'm over reacting but the bitter reality struck me at the very least. Just like in this scenario where there's this someone I like but that 'until here' feeling arouses whenever my ignited spirit imagines the odd things of me and him far from happening.
HIm. haha..I don't know his name but.....secret! shhh!!

So I should beat around the bush, what I want to relay guys is this feeling of having a crush but the question is, does this crush have the same feeling as mine? Will the love be reciprocated with his or will there be only one-sided love aside? These underlying questions have been fluttering inside me when all I can do is suppress all of these feelings from revealing. 

So crush, what about it?.Does it make sense in our lives? Is there a big deal? Yeah, I guess so because for me, a crush is not just about getting attracted by his looks, charisma or charm but someone that you admire and will serve as an inspiration (aside from your family and friends). He's one of your reasons why you do a lot of effort on something to be noticed. It is in him your ideals about love bloom because of the wildest imaginations the our minds can produce. Char!

To be honest, I have lots of crushes! I feel kilig whenever I see their pictures in my tab. My heart throbs as I saw their deep mysterious smiles and I melt with joy for the fancies of me and him singing songs together full of zeal. I got a crush on celebrities like Ian Somerhalder, Jericho Rosales and Ignacio Reyes to name a few:)) In school, I got crushes too but some of them died out. Haha.. It depends on how frequent I see the person or how related is he to my friends. So it's mostly I got a crush to a classmate. Haha but that was before.

What happened today urged me to write this article:)) WOW! This day is so amazing and at the same time unexpected to think that I already have a pic of me and my crush Yokohama-san together:)) Special thanks to my classmates especially Queenie for making the picture taking possible. I didn't expect it.I just can't stop smiling seeing his face, his eyes! WAAAH! He's so cute:)) so sad he has his girl already:(( but then again that's OK. As long as I don't see them together, that would be fine. That will make my day complete and he will inspire me more and more. HAHAHA..

Since we are in this world endowed with limitless imaginations, expectations will never be out of place. Our feelings might grow and chances are we might assume that the person we fall in love to might have the same feelings but just can't tell us straightway. We tend to hope that maybe there's a way that we and that person might end up together. Whew! How I wish!

But as I look myself in a mirror, realities come to slap me on the face. I'm not beautiful, I'm not sexy, I'm unattractive...those negative remarks of myself pushed me to wake up and stop dreaming. Then suddenly, I came to realize that no one would get attracted by me and certainly not the likes of him because he probably has his own standards. Ouch! That he would rather prefer sexy, pretty and attractive women than me:'(

I know that this problem does not only concern me as this is considered a slice of everyone's lives. A part of our life where feelings overflow because our admiration on someone, secretly. A crush will be a crush and the possibility of being together will be there. But, let not our hearts be hardened.... coz Love will come in a right place and in a right time. It falls into place and is patient. If we will just wait and see:)) 

So if somebody will ask me, 'Bakit hindi ka crush ng crush mo?'..I'll simply answer it in a song:

From Aiza Seguerra's Pagdating ng Panahon....HAHA

♪♫♪.....Di pa siguro bukas
Di pa rin ngayon
Malay mo balang araw
Dumating din iyon
Pagdating ng panahon 

Baka ikaw rin at ako 

Baka tibok ng puso ko'y 

Maging tibok ng puso mo...♪♫♪



Falling in love with crush,
Cindy♥♥♥

Wednesday, February 19, 2014

We are all humans.. we die. In memoriam to our neighbor and to Atty. Noel Archival

The death of the known lawyer was the headline in the
newspaper and in the television
It was around 7 PM when I reached home. Although it was a little bit tiring and a stressful day for me, but still, I thanked God for the day well done by doing the sign of a cross in the nearby chapel. As I opened the gate and headed towards the door, I noticed silence filled the atmosphere. I heard no loud screams from the karaoke station, no children playing inside the chapel, some street lights were off and our dogs not barking. I think that was one of the peaceful nights in Purok 2 that I've observed.

Now, as I clutched the knob opening the main door, I saw the skeptical faces of my family members telling me to get inside as they have something to tell me. Look, I'm not used to this strangeness because if they act something like this then I presume they will be telling me a bad news. I can see all of them wanted to break the silence as my heart was pounding already thinking what happened or was anything wrong since I left. Unimaginable things started to pour out in my mind as I waited for them to tell me... until kuya Raprap initiated.


Then there it was, someone died. Not in the family (thank heavens!) but it is the neighbor.... the neighbor we had a spite for a long time... being ambushed.

Upon hearing the news, my jaw dropped. I just can't believe to what I just heard. Him? Well, that's unlikely to happen because I do believe in the saying that 'Weeds don't die easily'. At first, I really don't believe in them but my sister, Cherry confirmed that they saw it on a local news program (Balitang Bisdak on GMA7) with his name recognized.

I uttered in disbelief to what happened to him. His death was sudden and I was really shocked, I really am because first and foremost, we considered him as the 'kontrabido'.. He was the one that caused us so much trouble since we settled in the place because he claimed our land as his own despite of the legal documents and other sufficient evidence we presented just to prove that we own the land. I remembered he's always sending us subpoena calling the presence of my mother to attend the hearing. For me, he's the superior and pompous neighbor that we have because he's taking lands not his own and he generated money by using them but despite of his wrong doings we remained silent just to have a peaceful life and acted like we don't care. We know he keeps on stoning us but we just laughed at him secretly.

When I heard he was ambushed, his death is no joke. It was brutal. Since he's one of the bodyguards of a well-known lawyer here in Cebu, they should have been given protection. The story was that they were from a trial case when the crime happened. While driving back to Cebu City, they happened to pass a quiet barangay in Dalaguete when suddenly armed men got near to their car then started shooting them. It was a tragic one to look upon them as pictures in the news and in the net started to flash in. The lawyer, the driver and him were killed in an instant with one survived but his arm has to be amputated. 

The tragic incident 
Right now, I do realize that his time is up. Fate has to cut his string and he has to embark into a new life in which only God knows what will happen. Although he was that hostile neighbor I've known ever since my world began but I pity his family. He left his five children with a housewife doing sideline. How will they suppose to live then? I can feel the pain of his wife regretting since they had a misunderstanding the night before it happened.
Rest in peace Atty. Noel Archival

Then my premonitions were proved wrong and I was drawn into a conclusion that people, no matter how good or bad will have to face the end. Death will put verdict into our lives and it is in death we will come to realize that we are just humans whose body will perish and all of us will be subjected to trial  with God as the judge. 

Despite of all the things, I will still pray for you Sir, to attorney and the driver... May you Rest in peace

Take time to reflect our lives by listening this song entitled Hoy Tawo




Monday, February 17, 2014

At school I made a family of my own...♥♥♥

Wow! What a nice feeling to love and be loved in return. The feeling that you belong to a certain group where you are family, you are given gifts without expecting anything in return and the like. I thank God a million times for giving me friends who cares for me at no expense. He really answered my prayers and that is to give me people in my life who believes in me most especially at this moment.

So here's my family in school... I'm thankful they made things lighter than usual. Who makes me smile everytime I see them, who makes me forget my problems for a while and most especially who believes in me that I can do things amidst hardship and achieve my dreams if we stay together with God as the precursor of everything.

I thank my bff Dindi for the understanding when things don't go its way..I really love yah dine. I hope we graduate together:))

I thank ate Sam for showing me that hard times need not to be worried. She is someone of greater abilities but so generous she's telling us everything she knows.

I thank my mommy Mei for being there as a Mommy Figure. I admire your strength of character and your way of dealing problems. 


I thank Ate Mench for inspiring me to study hard. Thanks for being my study buddy as I learned a lot from you. 

WHEN THINGS ARE RIGHT...

During my '18th' birthday again..haha

Our POST VALENTINE hangout in SM

My first sipping of Tiramisu Milk Tea at Noona Cafe

Having a great time there instead of studying..haha

First month of our friendship

During CC class...coz sir is not yet around

With Ate Mench, I got closer with the WINX:)) w/ Meliza, Roann, Marj, Kristina, Gellie, Fayedah and Queenie featuring Gwyn as well. This pic was taken during our Christmas Picnic in IT Park Lahug.

I know, this will not always be like this. A movie has an ending, the chapter has to end and the friendship, All Good things will come to an end.I know we will separate ways but I hope that as we take another road in our own ways and in our own paths, may we not forget the times we spend together and the laughs we shared. As for me, this is already a part of my college life, the sweetest part of my arduous journey. I thank God for having friends with them. They're truly amazing,

Saturday, February 15, 2014

Love can wait♥♥♥

Love can wait. Even though you're million miles away and we're of different worlds apart but you never fail to show me that there's hope in everything. I know I'm not pretty but thanks for always telling me I'm beautiful inside and out. You know, you make me smile everytime I look at your picture. Haha. That makes my day ok! Well, let's be friends for now.. if we are meant for each other then love will find its way. Let's take our priorities first.

I know you're just there, at the end of the line...it will be worth the wait, I swear. Just hold on, my soulmate..I hope God will answer my prayers and I'll never stop dreaming about you:))

HAPPY VALENTINES DAY TO EVERYONE💞💑💓

Friday, February 7, 2014

The Relevance of Edmond Dantes' Life to Jose Rizal

NOTE: I've posted this blog so as to help students have an idea on how to compare the above mentioned names and by no means allow you to copy-paste all what has stated down here. It is best you construct your own idea or opinion about the subject matter. Wishing you all the best!

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A.  How will you depict the life story of Edmond Dantes and Dr. Jose Rizal if you believe in conspiracy and as a victim of duplicity and a Machiavellian Plot?

Answer: 
I can depict the life story of the two subjects Edmond Dantes and Dr. Jose Rizal by basing and looking at the experiences they have gone though. It is true that Edmond Dantes and Dr. Jose Rizal is in a similar situation much like a victim of duplicity and a Machiavellian Plot because they were victims of injustice and a betrayal that they don’t deserve. They believed that in doing good, they will reap a better outcome but it was the other way around. Instead, they were betrayed and plotted that drawn both of them to so much confusion and at first disbelief. Both were charged of a crime they didn’t really commit much to the disappointment that some of their trusted friends and comrades were the ones doing the selfish motive: to pull them down and eventually fall into their traps.

In the case of Edmond Dantes, he brought with him without knowing it, a compromising letter addressed to Nortier de Villefort, the Bonapartist father of Gerard de Villefort. Realizing what happened and mostly convinced of the innocence of Dantes, the king's judge sent Dantes to the Château d'If, as a state prisoner. Just like Jose Rizal who believed to be sent as a volunteer physician in Cuba but was held and detained for a while in Montjuich Castle realizing Gov. Gen Blanco was behind all of the conspiracy.

B. Compare and contrast the historical background of Dr. Jose Rizal and Edmond Dantes in:

 1. Politics

During the time of Rizal, the Spanish government was so corrupt that it took advantage the helpless Filipinos or Indios in terms of power and freedom. All they were concerned of was to generate more money not by their own hands but with the help of our fellow Filipinos who were maltreated and abused if they don’t follow their orders. Several unjustifiable laws have been promulgated just for their own benefit and not for the sake of the Filipino people which is unfair. That’s why Dr. Jose Rizal thought that there’s a need for national consciousness before it’s too late. His trial is a proof of Spanish injustice and misrule. His case was prejudged, he was considered guilty before the actual trial. It accepted all charges and testimonies against him and ignored all arguments and proofs in his favor.

In Edmond Dantes’ time of setting, politics had played a crucial role in the lives of the people living in Europe as Bonapartism was mentioned in the story. This is about the adaptation of principles of the French Revolution to suit Napoleon's imperial form of rule. If you are against it, then you are a subject of treason.

2. Education

Dr. Jose Rizal was indeed a genius in his time. He was exemplary in all aspects, be it into the field of arts or in sciences. Education for him was indispensable to the progress of man. To grasp higher knowledge, he took courage to go abroad and pursue his studies in the field of medicine. While in Europe, the French revolution and the movements of thought influenced Rizal’s thoughts. It made him a learned man having read many books including Alexandre Dumas’ book The Count of Monte Cristo which served as one of his basis to write his own novel concerning the Spanish misrule of his country Philippines. 

Edmond Dantes, on the other hand, didn’t get that privilege to get an education like Rizal did. He didn’t know much about politics or so until such time when he was imprisoned. He happened to meet a fellow prisoner in the name of Abbe Faria, a priest. By that, Faria came to give the illiterate Dantès an extensive education in mathematics, literature, philosophy, economics, hand and sword combat and military strategy for eight years. He also helped Dantès discover why he himself was imprisoned.

3. Religion

When Jose Rizal was young, his mother taught him to be a religious person as he was baptized a Roman Catholic. The bible was one of the books that supplemented his faith in God. But there was a time he saw religion didn’t make sense when some friars didn’t act the way they should be. His retraction also has been a controversy over the years whether he retracted his religious errors or not.

Dantes believed there is God whose goodness will make the life fair and with justice until he spends six years in solitary confinement, first seeking and then blaming God for his suffering. Edmond Dantes lost faith in God and everything he ever stood for. He was just waiting to die.

4. Financial status

Jose Rizal belonged to a middle-class family. His parents were both from a prominent ancestry. Their lands and Rizal’s high-quality education are proofs that they’re someone who could afford especially when Jose decided to go abroad and they have to send him his allowance.  

Edmond Dantes the hero is a sailor from a poor background. He could not read nor write which means he had no business befriending wealth and royal Fernando Mondego but the good thing about him was that he was a good person who won favour everywhere he goes.

5. Love.

Our foremost national hero, Rizal had also experienced falling in love into the charm of women he meets but one thing remarkable about him is that he didn’t forget his duty, and that is to help first his fellowmen from the abusive clutches of the Spaniards. Although he has that urge, he never forgets to send his love by sending letters to his family and friends letting them know he’s alright.

In Edmond’s case, he was not lucky in love because right after he was imprisoned, his girlfriend Mercedes married Mondego and by that virtue, it just shows that Mercedes easily gave up her vows with Edmond.

6. Society
Rizal was at the time when the society only favors to those who are in power. Ordinary people suffered a lot from the cruelty and the injustices of the Spanish government. There was no equality of treatment but rather a society wherein it was ruled by tyranny and is ran by money.

Edmond Dantes was in a society where ignorance doesn’t have a place to set in. A society in which wealth, title and prestige only matters and is regarded by many.  

C. Moral lesson

The lesson that I learned from the movie is that life is not always fair. We have to accept the fact that there are really circumstances in life which opts to be unacceptable and thus unfair because if we just have to learn how to deal with it, we might find a better solution how to get through it. Like a wheel, it has ups and downs so might as well make yourself strong when sometimes you’re feeling down.

Another is vengeance is not ours, it’s God’s. Although Dantes was right in taking revenge against his enemies, but then this doesn’t make him fully satisfied. God knows everything, be it right or wrong and it is his will what will happen. No bad deed will go unpunished as one had said so we should let God do the justice because after all, we will go to him when our time comes. In his eyes, he sees the truth, he distinguishes the real and the lie and he balances the good and the bad.
And lastly, whatever comes from selfish motives, one will suffer at the end.

D. Justification

I just want to justify that The Count of Monte Cristo is somehow related to Rizal’s life in such a way that it talks about betrayal, injustice, jealousy, conspiracy, and revenge. Though not to the point that Rizal wanted to show revenge like Edmond did but in a way that he wants the Spanish government to realize their mistakes in ruling their colonized country.

In the movie, Edmond was charged in committing treason while Rizal was charged for three crimes: treason, sedition and illegal association. Both of them were not given a chance to further defend themselves in the court because they were condemned already before the trial began and plotted evidences were shown to make the accusations against them strong.


Indeed, The Count of Monte Cristo is a great movie. This is the movie that showed us that not all the time we have to remain silent but also have to fight when needed.