Now that I have money of my own. I need to help my family as hard as I could.
Every 15th day of the month comes, I see to it that I give all of my salary to mother.
It really hurts me everytime I heard my mother worrying all of the expenses of the house.
If I could turn my body into two, I would do anything just to shoulder all the debts and bills that we have. But sad to say, I can't. My salary isn't enough to cover all that we need.
My mates are always telling me that I'm too serious with my life but who couldn't be serious when your family depends on you? Sometimes, I just don't know what to do when mother would tell me that starting this month she would get less with her salary since she loaned a sum of money.
Sometimes, when I don't know how to hide my problems anymore, I wish I could find some space being alone and cry out all these burdens. I realize that you have to endure everything even forget yourself for a while to provide your family all they need. Another thing that I worry about is how could I get my siblings go on with their education? With Cherry taking up Dentistry and Kenneth in a private school, how would my salary help them when exam comes? That's why I'm sorry my salary is too low, I couldn't shoulder it all. I also blame myself. Whew!
Lucky for others who got a job with a higher pay. While they are going out in parties during pay roll, I on the other hand would go straight to the house. Despite of that, I'm happy to hand all my money to mother. Seeing both of my parents happy as I'm now making a living makes all of my effort worth it. Finally, that would pay some of our bills and buy some groceries still.
But despite of this, I'm still thankful for the work that I have. I've got a nice workplace, good people and a great experience each day. For now, I will do anything to keep my family safe and secure. I know God is with me all the time. All of this is for them.. as long as I could, I will give them all of me.
Every 15th day of the month comes, I see to it that I give all of my salary to mother.
It really hurts me everytime I heard my mother worrying all of the expenses of the house.
If I could turn my body into two, I would do anything just to shoulder all the debts and bills that we have. But sad to say, I can't. My salary isn't enough to cover all that we need.
My mates are always telling me that I'm too serious with my life but who couldn't be serious when your family depends on you? Sometimes, I just don't know what to do when mother would tell me that starting this month she would get less with her salary since she loaned a sum of money.
Sometimes, when I don't know how to hide my problems anymore, I wish I could find some space being alone and cry out all these burdens. I realize that you have to endure everything even forget yourself for a while to provide your family all they need. Another thing that I worry about is how could I get my siblings go on with their education? With Cherry taking up Dentistry and Kenneth in a private school, how would my salary help them when exam comes? That's why I'm sorry my salary is too low, I couldn't shoulder it all. I also blame myself. Whew!
Lucky for others who got a job with a higher pay. While they are going out in parties during pay roll, I on the other hand would go straight to the house. Despite of that, I'm happy to hand all my money to mother. Seeing both of my parents happy as I'm now making a living makes all of my effort worth it. Finally, that would pay some of our bills and buy some groceries still.
But despite of this, I'm still thankful for the work that I have. I've got a nice workplace, good people and a great experience each day. For now, I will do anything to keep my family safe and secure. I know God is with me all the time. All of this is for them.. as long as I could, I will give them all of me.
2 comments:
Hi ate Cindy! I really admire you for being such a selfless daughter. I pray that one day your problems would just disappear and I know it would happen, because God will bless you for your sacrifices and hardships. It is sad to know that the salary is low, expecting a bit of relief after college because you're already earning. The problem is the government doesn't really look at these matters. Hands down to you ate:). -shy
ahhh thank you po. tagal kong nabasa itong comment but reading this really made me smile. slamat po. God bless
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