World of masks

In this world where people have thousands of masks to wear, choosing the right people can be hard.

In a world that doesn't stop on talking, throwing criticisms here and there and placing judgments on each other's back, I just can't help but sigh as these were evident in our day to day living. Witnessing in my own eyes and even with my ears how whispers turn into gossips and how laughs turn into mockery, it's really disappointing. To think that one person they've been talking about has no idea that despite of the good things that she has, still they're making the flaw of the person an issue.

Masks. People nowadays are wearing PLASTIC masks. These masks are mostly happy faces. Obviously, these represent pretension. I can't help but think they're wearing it to look like they care but sad to say they don't. To see these people tearing each other apart is like a farce for me. I can't believe they're like snakes that at one point they're very nice to you but behind your back, stories began to come up and what supposed to be secrets reveal. Why they have to do that?

If I could just put my earphones on then I don't have to endure the drama these people want to play.

My realization: you can't live with your mask FOREVER. For now, it's hard to trust someone knowing some people can't keep your secrets. We all know that masks are being worn to hide their true identity, not to be obvious . 

Lord, I pray for these people. To purify their thoughts and cleanse their heart. That they may see the good and not the bad in a person. To be real in their actions. To mind their own life and mostly, to help their brothers and sisters unconditionally. They may find peace for themselves. 

Well this is all for this entry. Life goes on. Gossips and issues are endless. Judging people is contagious. I just have to enjoy what comes next. Note to self.... I JUST DON'T CARE!

A Cry for Help

As exactly what I'm feeling right now. :-( 
It seems like I keep on asking help. Honestly, I couldn't help but ask God why all these bad things are happening to me. If only I have the answers...

But when I came across this verse, I was enlightened in an instant. I realized that God is with us all the time. All I have to do is hold on and let these things happen for a reason. What touched me on Psalms 88 is this
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Lord, you are the God who saves me;

day and night I cry out to you.

May my prayer come before you;

turn your ear to my cry.

I am overwhelmed with troubles

and my life draws near to death.

I am counted among those who go down to the pit;

I am like one without strength.

I am set apart with the dead,

like the slain who lie in the grave,

whom you remember no more,

who are cut off from your care.

You have put me in the lowest pit,

in the darkest depths.

Your wrath lies heavily on me;

you have overwhelmed me with all your waves.

You have taken from me my closest friends

and have made me repulsive to them.

I am confined and cannot escape;

my eyes are dim with grief.

I call to you, Lord, every day;

I spread out my hands to you.

Do you show your wonders to the dead?

Do their spirits rise up and praise you?

Is your love declared in the grave,

your faithfulness in Destruction ?

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Are your wonders known in the place of darkness,

or your righteous deeds in the land of oblivion?

But I cry to you for help, Lord;

in the morning my prayer comes before you.

Why, Lord, do you reject me

and hide your face from me?

All day long they surround me like a flood;

they have completely engulfed me.

You have taken from me friend and neighbor—

darkness is my closest friend. 

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God is my only salvation.  I know that these problems are just  temporary. I may now taking bigger burdens this time but I hope that faith will still be here. 
I do believe that this will calm after the storm. 

Things learned in Chemistry section

the struggle is real if you'll be assigned in chem.. why? 

Having MINDRAY BS300 as our machine, here are the things that we should look at:

• should avoid probe collisions! I always check the reagents open before running tests 
• controls should reach the target value or at least within range..
• ensuring there is sufficient reagent available 
• pipetting stuffs like preparing Creatinine, Total and Direct Bilirubin and SGOT
• correlating results 
• Rerunning to assure abnormal or panic values 
• Diluting samples if there's any linearity
• checking the distilled water and its waste tank regularly
• Calibrate when using new reagents (only when it has a different LOT NUMBER) 

Hoping that the company would replace a COBAS E11 over this. :-)

ALL OF ME

Now that I have money of my own. I need to help my family as hard as I could.

Every 15th day of the month comes, I see to it that I give all of my salary to mother.
It really hurts me everytime I heard my mother worrying all of the expenses of the house.

If I could turn my body into two, I would do anything just to shoulder all the debts and bills that we have. But sad to say, I can't. My salary isn't enough to cover all that we need.

My mates are always telling me that I'm too serious with my life but who couldn't be serious when your family depends on you? Sometimes, I just don't know what to do when mother would tell me that starting this month she would get less with her salary since she loaned a sum of money.

Sometimes, when I don't know how to hide my problems anymore, I wish I could find some space being alone and cry out all these burdens. I realize that you have to endure everything even forget yourself for a while to provide your family all they need. Another thing that I worry about is how could I get my siblings go on with their education? With Cherry taking up Dentistry and Kenneth in a private school, how would my salary help them when exam comes? That's why I'm sorry my salary is too low, I couldn't shoulder it all. I also blame myself. Whew!

Lucky for others who got a job with a higher pay. While they are going out in parties during pay roll, I on the other hand would go straight to the house. Despite of that, I'm happy to hand all my money to mother. Seeing both of my parents happy as I'm now making a living makes all of my effort worth it. Finally, that would pay some of our bills and buy some groceries still.

But despite of this, I'm still thankful for the work that I have. I've got a nice workplace, good people and a great experience each day. For now, I will do anything to keep my family safe and secure. I know God is with me all the time. All of this is for them.. as long as I could, I will give them all of me.

How I completed my requirements?

Before I started my work, I was given only 3 days to comply all my requirements. As I saw them on the list, I'm not sure if I could give them all at once.

BUT I HAVE TO DO IT!

In those days I have to endure waiting and filling up forms, there was this ONE WOMAN who was with me who endured more in waiting and kept me company to the places I need to go. This is no other than my aunt, Antie Inday.

Yes, I know I should have done this alone but honestly, I'm not so familiar with what government agencies to go and Mother couldn't go with me. So come with me as how did I get my requirements in just a few days.

All you have to do is organize a schedule ahead of time. Think what comes first just as what I did.

1. How to get a BARANGAY CLEARANCE?

• Go to your nearest Barangay Hall (where you belong)
• Make sure you are a REGISTERED VOTER. As for me, the Barangay captain explained to me why it is so important to be a registered voter...So that they will have a record of you (in case if the company HR inquires) and a proof that you are truly a resident of this area.
• Pay the necessary amount (but as for my case, it was free)

If not a registered voter, go to the COMELEC office near you. Just present a valid ID, fill up the given forms, and proceed to the biometrics.

2. How to get a POLICE CLEARANCE?

• This time, you SHOULD have your barangay clearance with you, along with a photocopy of your NSO certificate.
• If you're living in the provinces, you just have to go straight to your respective police station and pay for your clearance.
• If you're living in CEBU CITY, there's only ONE BRANCH that issues POLICE CLEARANCES...that's within the White Gold Club area.
• Pay 190 pesos

3. How to get NBI CLEARANCE?

• Do the online registration right away, go to http://clearance.nbi.gov.ph/. and fill up some important data.
• After following some steps, it will be your option if you pay it thru bank or thru bayad centers. Take note the request number given to you (this will serve as your tracking number too). I paid 140 pesos for this. Keep the receipt once paid.
• Go straight to NBI office and give the receipt to the RECEIVING window. Wait until it's your turn to validate your data and your biometrics.
• There will be NO problem if you are 'NO HIT'. If this is the case, wait to claim your clearance.
• For those people who are "WITH HIT", you have to wait 15 days or so to get it. The agency might verify it if you have no records whatsoever.

4. How to get TIN # ? What agency?

• First things first: It is best to get the form from the company you're working (if they have it) and ask a LETTER from your manager stating that you are working in their company and they are in need of your TIN number and so on. Should the accomplished form has the SIGN of the manager or the administrator of the company you'll be working.
• At that time, I was asked to download the form through their website. Just search 'BIR form 1902' and it will come right after. This is the APPLICATION FOR REGISTRATION for newbies like me,
• Go to the nearest BIR (Bureau of Internal Revenue) branch
• Fill it up and hand it over to the person in-charge together with the letter. Wait for a few minutes to encode your data
• After which, they will just inform you that it's done and the company will do the rest of the process to get your TIN number.

5. PHILHEALTH and SSS

• I was registered to PHILHEALTH and SSS in Robinson's mall, the Lingkod Pinoy center. First, get your priority number and once called, fill up the forms. 
• Get ready with your NSO birth certificate and its photocopy.
• Just easy as 1-2-3 and you can have your PHILHEALTH and SSS number!

6. HEALTH CERTIFICATE

• Before you go the CITY HEALTH CENTER, have your pre-employment examination first :-) I just had my medical exam in Total health check diagnostics obviously. The laboratory exams consist of CBC, Urinalysis, Hepatitis B Screening, Pregnancy test, Drug test and X-ray.
• Bring the x-ray film with you to the City Health.
• Pay the required amount and they will hand you a somewhat health card that you are indeed healthy without any bad condition.

7. OTHERS

• You must have your TOR/Diploma already from the school you graduated
• Your birth certificate must be NSO/PSA authenticated
• BOARD RATING and LICENSE should be claimed from PRC (Professional Regulation Commission)

And I have completed these requirements for three days. I know some can do it in a day or two but thank God I was able to comply them before I started to work. Thank God, you were there with us.

When jokes are too much

If only I could shut their mouths up by pulling a gun to their head, I could have done that.

People nowadays are too much when they realize you're weak and you can't help but just laugh at their jokes about you. To think they have to act like professionals but sad to say it doesn't show with how they treated some of their co-workers. I was really insulted of what they said to me today and I think this should be stopped before they could tore me up into shame or something.

At first, I just laughed with them acting like I didn't care of what they say about my face or teasing me to someone. I understand that this will be all for fun but as time passes by, the teasing and the joking are slowly turning into insults and belittling my abilities. This happens everyday and I just laughed at it like I'm never affected even it somehow hurts. Yeah, I was so stupid to have never spat some words back to them.  

Respect is earned. Hit me once more and I'll give you guys the war that you want. Don't lose my patience and never attempt for it. You just don't know how a silent person stabs you back. I just pray for your soul that somehow you'll realize to show respect to someone. You shouldn't make fun of a person because you think you're superior than him and the like. God bless you both and change for the better. I'm hoping for a harmonious relationship for all of us. Don't be a jerk..

OFFICIALLY EMPLOYED!

That feeling when a friend texted you for a job opportunity, that was priceless! As in, I feel so lucky knowing that a certain diagnostics laboratory is in need of a licensed medical technologist. On that week, I was so determined to look for a job that would meet my qualifications. I even went online, in hopes that I could find one to apply and send my resume.

This time, I really need a job.

I want to find a work as soon as possible to be of help to my family. I don't want to wake up each day without anything to do. This is not the time now to be lazy.

From the start, I don't mind how much will I get from the company. As long as I'm gaining experience and I'm working harmoniously with other people, that's fine for me.

And so, I prayed. I ask God to give me signs for a job until the next day, my friend Ate Rhena told me that the place she's working needs two more medical technologists.

To make this story short, I didn't waste time and said to her that I'm willing to take the job. The next day, I passed my resume to the HR and was able to talk with the chief medical technologist, Maam Ester.It was just a normal conversation without feeling nervous as I and the other one Ate Niña were interviewed.

Without further delay, we were hired in an instant! After that, we were asked to comply with the requirements so that I can start on October 1!

Wow! It was just a week ago I passed the exam and I just got my first job immediately! My endless thanks to the Lord for giving me this blessing. I never thought it would come to me right on an instant!

I also want to thank Ate Rhena for calling me. I really owe her a lot. Without her, I will never know that this lab is in need of me :-)

So here I come, I welcome myself and good luck to me at TOTAL HEALTH CHECK DIAGNOSTICS, my first job as RMT!