Showing posts with label stories. Show all posts
Showing posts with label stories. Show all posts

Wednesday, May 28, 2014

I AM who I AM..

Guys, I'm glad that I found the poem I wrote five years ago...I was a very emotional and introvert person back then. This was written in a freestyle hand. Here this goes:


Should I have to dress up like a vixen
In front of the thousand naked eyes?
Though my heart was beaten 
And feelings aching
Should thou force me to hold 
the big calvary of my life?

I am who I am
Things thou showed upon me is not suitable,
nor pertinent, and capable
This is what my heart strongly whispered me in calm

My life is a tragic comedy,
That pushes me to hell harshly,
Thou do not hold my veins,
Why is gold better than silver?

O my Lord, my savior, abide his soul
For he was tempted by atraitor snake
For I am here, facing fear that I can't
escape the inevitable dusk bet at stake


I know the poem is so abstract but that's what I had in mind. This is really abstract but then I'm proud I was able to make a poem like this. 

Sunday, November 18, 2012

I'm in love with a weirdo (One-shot Love Story)

NOTE: Hi guys, this is the story that I've made last year. Although this is a product of my imagination but I do think it happens in real life (I hope so).  Spare me for my English and I hope you enjoy my one-shot! ♥Cindy

My one shot story inspired from
Namida Usagi

I was in second year high school then.

When we were heading towards our classroom, I heard again the teasing of my classmates.

"Hey, Heidi. Here’s your soul mate again. Ayeee!"

I was trying not to be affected by them.  I didn’t know the person anyway. For me, the teasing was all for fun but I realized that they were now too much. I could see the guy noticed it already.

"Will you stop it guys? It’s embarrassing already."

Well, I really don’t know when it all started. It’s just that this week, I’m always teased to this guy. Sometimes, I realized that just because I don’t have a boyfriend, they thought it would be fun if they will tease me with a guy who is as weird as me. Yes, I consider myself a weird person but I’m not as weird as him. What made him weird is that he was always around like he doesn't have classes to attend to. We always saw him sitting on the bench waiting for someone, looking at other people passing by. 

One day, I was really in a hurry to catch for my first class. Our teacher would be giving us a test. I know I
was late so I rushed to the stairs when suddenly someone bumped me.

I was red in fury when my books were on the staircase. I immediately reached for my books when my eyes opened wider and found out the one who ran unto me. What a fate! It’s the weird guy. I quickly took my books when he reached the other book for me.

"S-S-sorry miss! A-are you hurt? I'm so sorry." He asked, very tensed.

I didn’t know what to say at that moment. The teacher must have started the test so without wasting my time, I just nodded to him saying it’s all right and rushed to my class. I entered the classroom answering the remaining items our teacher dictated to us and well, I completely lost my mind thinking of that weird guy who bumped to me a while ago. 

I usually go home alone but before I go out from the gates of the school, I never forget to go to the wide and beautiful garden to get fresh air. As I was unwinding myself, it was first time of me to hear a sound of a violin, it was well-played and was pleasing to my ears. It was somewhat leading me to a place where I want to go. I listened to it for a while, feeling it when it suddenly stopped. There my curiosity grew to who was playing the violin and I went nearer to found out that....... the weird guy was the one playing the violin!

As I watched him every other day, I thought he was not a weirdo at all. He was a talented guy. One day, I was listening to him without noticing me when my cough aroused. He heard it and I was left with no choice but to show up and come up with an excuse of asking him where the campus ministry is.

He was not surprised when he saw me and he just replied.

"There  ...” his hands were leading at the north.

My mind ran out of words after being caught and I just simply said,

"Thanks. Just continue what you’re doing. It’s beautiful! ", and I rushed then pretending to go to the campus ministry.

What happened in the garden was just the start of our friendship and I never realized that I got close to him since we always see each other in the library. It happened when we are on the same table and he saw me having difficulties in solving a math problem. Without hesitation, he offered to answer the math problem in which I was surprised to accept it.

Takahiro Narumi as Kei
When he was teaching me, I realized that the guy beside me is the weird guy my classmates are teasing. He was just misunderstood. The thought of him as a weird guy was gone. I found him cute at all because he has tantalizing eyes, physique built and a cute smile. Rarely do I get to know a person with a baritone voice too.

His name is Kei, a 3rd year student. He is a top student placing in the fourth spot. You couldn’t see him as a son of a well-known businessman because despite of the luxury that he has, he is a simple guy. He's also humble with his achievements.

Well ,we usually meet in the garden where he plays his violin. I kept our meetings a secret from my friends because I don’t want to be an everyone’s jest but each day, meeting with Kei was an excitement. I understand him now and I seem to be comfortable with him talking things the two of us can only understand. That’s when I knew I was the one he’s really waiting for when he’s on the bench because he noticed that my classmates were teasing me to him. I can’t believe he knew that. 

I considered him as my older brother but as days and nights passed, my eerie feeling towards him started to develop. It all began when he uttered those words:  "You know, you’re beautiful when you smile, it makes me happy.", and as he was saying me this he put a rose on my ear.

I blushed for a while. What does Kei trying to say? Those words served to be a bell for me. Sometimes it made me smile to think that he’s happy when I’m with him. He is not a weird guy anymore. I’ve noticed that as we meet each day, I could see a lot of changes in him. He is more attractive each day. 

The day of September 1 was really a revelation for me when he said something that answered all my questions. I was surprised when he finally took courage to say what he felt for me and as he expressed it, I couldn’t find the words to say, trying to resist the tension. I wanted to say what I also felt for him but then, I chose what is right. 

"Kei, you know this is not right. I treated you as my brother and we should not be more than that.", I said.

It was hard for me to conceal my feelings towards him. I still couldn’t believe him telling me those words I so long to hear. He told me that he learned to trust himself because of me and that I was the only one who accepted his weaknesses. If only I’ll accept his love.

"Just give me some time to think Kei. Not now.“ , was the only thing that I said.  He looked at me if there’s a chance but I didn’t look at him in the eye. So Kei left with no choice.

"Well, I’ll respect your decision. See you next day, Heidi. ", then he kissed me on the cheek and  walked away. I was not in my senses at that time.


The night seemed to be peaceful while I’m in a troubled mind. Did Kei confess his feelings already? I struggled to tell myself that what he'd said was not true. I have feelings for him too but I promised to my parents not to enter relatonships while I’m studying. I really cried the entire night for it was difficult for me, difficult than any math problems could ever unravel but then I came up with a decision……………

Well, I find myself as a college student right now and the memories that I had with Kei will never fade because we built good memories together. Kei and I chose to separate ways not to end up our friendship but to make our future. Kei gave me inspiration to strive hard and reach for my dreams.  He didn’t leave me despite of my decision and instead he cares more for me than my girl friends do. We still have communication and we talk things under the sun. What happened that first day of September was a memorable one for it was a test of friendship between the two of us. I realized that love is patient, it always hopes, always perseveres and it never fails. It doesn't hurry. So I closed my eyes for a minute and I laughed at the thought that l will never forget having my best friend as your first love. THE END

Friday, September 7, 2012

Love knows no boundaries (One-shot)

I got this pictures of Fujioka Haruhi and Suou Tamaki
In Ouran Host Club
Spoiler: What will happen if Ret Geum, the heartthrob tennis player will suddenly find an interest to the boyish but breathtakingly beautiful volleyball player Henna Lee? Will the 'guy-like' Henna take Ret's hidden feelings towards her? Check it out!
PS. It would be best if you listen to the song (found below) before reading it. and btw, I thank sweet Nate for giving me an inspiration, you're the one!! Thanks guys for reading!!
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It was early in the morning when Henna entered the classroom… she couldn’t take her friends’ jokes anymore.
‘These guys are too much.’ she thought.
Seeing that pink letter again on her arm chair, there was this uneasiness she felt for the tenth time. When she took it, it was the same handwriting from the earlier ones.
Now, she’s so sure that her boyish friends were the ones doing it so she approached them. With the note clasped on her hand, she sighed.
“Guys, I know you were the ones doing this. So tell me, what is this all about? A guessing game or what?”,
Henna expected them to admit it but, they shook their heads. No one dared to speak.
“Why so silent? If it’s not you, then who? Tell me.”, she pleaded.
Her boyish friends looked up at her, for a while they were a bit reluctant but they thought it’s about time. They should tell her. So Alexa, also called Alex, decided to reveal it.
“Alright Henna, you really wanna know? You’ll be surprised but it’s from...”,
“Please, go ahead. Tell me!”, Henna was irritated by the hanging revelation. She was feeling nervous when her friends got serious.
May, also called Max took a deep breath, “Ok, just chill dude. We’ll tell you. So, will you believe if we say… it is the tennis prince, Ret Geum sent you those?”
Upon hearing the name of the sender, her world suddenly stopped. What? Ret Geum? Are they kidding? That’s unbelievable! Why, Ret can’t do this to her, not if he has his girlfriend and not if Ret and she were friends.
She thought this was all but a joke so she looked at her other tomboy friends with disbelief. Her friends sensed her confusion and her other friend Jane alias Jason, felt the need to explain it.
“I know you can’t suspect Ret sending you letters, but dude, haven’t you noticed him these days. He’s always approaching you. He’s always in our practice when he has to attend for his own and we’ve noticed one thing…”, she broke. Henna was listening carefully,
“The way he looks at you, his eyes were full of admiration. Weee.”, then her friends started to tease her.
Henna found it disgusting and she was not convinced that Ret could do it her. When she looked at his armchair, it was empty. 
“But Ret is not yet here. How come?”
“Are you dumb, Henna? He should not be here if he doesn’t want to be suspected. We caught him dude. It was so early Ret came in and out of the room quickly and to our surprise, there’s the pink letter on your seat.”
Henna, partly believing what her friends were saying can’t speak of a word.
Ret Geum? The hot engineering student and the heartthrob tennis prince in this university will find an interest to a boyish volleyball player like Henna Park? That’s impossible!
Max interrupted her, “You know dude, just accept the fact that you’re not like us. You’re such a beauty, even your boyish look reveals you’re beautiful and that’s why girls go crazy and….. some boys as well.”, she said with a smile.
“Yeah, we even envy you. Your striking look leaves us out. So smart of Ret he’d noticed your hidden beauty.” Jason continued the teasing.
Henna wanted to ask more but their other classmates started to come in and the class was about to start. Henna went to her seat when she saw the attractive and the charming tennis player coming in and the girls greeted him. She met his eyes and without any word, Ret waved his hand, smiling. He was so friendly she couldn’t help but smile back at him. When she remembered what her friends told her, she sensed something from him. Could it really be him? She would find that out.
The class was over and Henna went out the classroom with her friends. Even though Ret was calling her, she pretended she didn’t hear him. Outside, she decided to part from them and she went to a bench far from the others.
When she was deep into her thoughts, tears gushed down her cheeks. When she read those pink letters, she felt strangeness within. Those letters expressed deep admiration to her.  With those words, so sweet and so kind, she’s certain someone who’s close to her would write it but she’d never suspected Ret.
She’s almost tired of this. This thing! It would be impossible to let everyone know she’s not what they’re thinking. Sometimes she felt she can’t follow his oppressive father anymore turning her as a son and dressing her up as a man after their mother had left them. She even gave up her dream to become a model. She can’t have mutual feelings with someone now that everyone sees her as a boy. If only she can escape…
“Hey, I know I can you find you here. Are you sick?”, said a familiar voice behind her.
Henna didn’t bother to turn her back. She knows his sweet perfume. The guy sat beside her. She quickly wiped her face and began to talk. 
“Ret, all of a sudden, you made a fool of me? How could you? You broke my trust.”
“I-I don’t understand you, Henna. What’s the problem?”,
“The problem? Here’s the problem…”, as she was saying this, she got all the pink letters from her bag.
Upon seeing all of those, Ret was not at all surprised, instead he smiled. “So, you think I was the one giving you these?”
“My friends caught you, Ret. So tell me, what are these letters for? A part of your research? An experiment? Or just a dare game with your friends?”
“And you think I can do that Henna?”,
“Why not, just because you’re famous you can have all the women you want, and as for a change, you want to try the likes of us.”
Henna was surprised by the words that slipped out from her mouth. Ret was appalled. He never thought Henna would think of such a thing.
“Nice try dude but that’s not true. Why, is it wrong to express deep admiration to you? I don’t think so.”
Henna can’t believe what this guy was saying. Did he know he’s expressing his feelings to a BOYISH girl like her? So all his gifts, his texts, and everything were a part of this? For a moment, she was speechless, she looked at Ret who owe her an explanation.
“Alright, I know this is absurd but I have a crush on you. I-It started during the sports fest when we’re on the same team. I don’t know what’s in you but you made me…….”
“How dare you say these words without your girlfriend knowing it?”
“We broke up last month.”
“And you think I’m your replacement?”,  
 “No, because I’m in love with you already!”,
Henna looked at him, shocked. Ret was catching his breath. His words stunned her. Why? Surely Ret would not break up his girlfriend just for her? That’s ridiculous!
“Are you out of your mind?”,
For a while, silence surrounded them. Both of them wanted to say something but the tension went up. Finally, Ret broke it.
“Perhaps you’re right. I’m so foolish I broke up with her because I’m in love with you. So foolish I know you could not love me back. You know, if I can fight this feeling just to resist you, I should have fought it but, I can’t.”
“Ret…..”
“Stop pretending, Henna. I know you feel it too.”
Henna didn’t expect this to happen. What did she do to drive this guy crazy? She laughed at the idea that a guy had a crush on a tomboy but it should not be her. Ret’s words resonated inside Henna’s body and she was as helpless when he got near her.
“Please give me a chance, Henna. I love you.”
His nearness made her breathless and she wanted to escape. His tender lips drew near hers as if to kiss her. A part of her wanted it. A chance? She doesn’t want to hear more lies from him until… she realized she should stop it. She pushed him away.
“I think we should stop all these nonsense, dude. So if you’ll excuse me, I have friends waiting for me. Sorry.”
And she walked away from him. Nonsense? Ret was left out like a jerk. He felt defeated from his game and was unable to defend it. Thinking he was a loser, he shouted out loud and made a fist against the wall. All of a sudden, Henna thought it’s just nonsense to her. What the heck! Why her? Why Henna Park? As far as he could remember, he never begged to someone for his love. Not certainly through silly letters! It was always the girls go after him and when he gets enough from them, it’s just easy to run away but Henna’s different. She’s a lesbian.
She’s always mistaken as a cute guy with her short hair, tall and lean body, the way she acts and to add that she’s good in volleyball. Even though Henna is a crush to some girls and a foe to some guys, for him she’s a gentle lady. Despite her tough identity that stuck out to the minds of everyone in school, her gentle personality shows. She’s even more feminine than all the girls he’d met. He loved her strong personality and he won’t care if she would stay that way.
If only he had not made friends with her from the start, he would not be able to see how cute she is when he teases her, when she laughs with his jokes and absolutely he will not find interest in her if not with her natural self and her ability to understand him. Maybe it would be best if they’ll just friends.
The graduation ball was just a day to go and Henna was not excited at all. She doesn’t like parties and even turned down some of the girls’ invitation to be their escort. Because of that, the girls got disappointed and diverted their plans to Ret.
There, she knew that the guy will be joining and that sad to say he has gotten his partner for the event.
“ I should have asked him earlier…hmp!”, regretted one of her classmates.
As Henna thought about Ret, she’s now comfortable they’re now the best of friends. What happened a year ago was resolved and both decided they will forget it as if nothing has happened. As time passed, they were close to each other. She even considered him as her confidante.
Henna was always in Ret’s tournaments as well as Ret in Henna’s volleyball games. She cheers a lot for her friend and she felt motivated everytime he cheers for her too. Henna found Ret a caring and a funny person. They even have bonding moments together and that made them know each other very well.
As she was thinking about this, Henna headed to the gym to practice. Her team mates were not yet there but to her surprise, Ret was sitting on the bleachers.
“Hey Ret! You’re here. No practice today?”, she asked.
“Nope, coach gave me a rest.”, Ret replied.
“But, what made you here? Do you need something?”
“Uhm..”
Ret was about to answer when she interrupted.
 “Aha! I know. You’re here to tell me about your lucky partner, right?”
Henna waited for his reply but she was puzzled when Ret smiled at her, that killer smile. Henna found herself blushed, what did she say again?
“So you think that girl is lucky, huh?”
“I guess so, dude. All the girls wanted you to be their partner and you really chose her.”
“Yeah, you’re right. She’s really special but I’m afraid she won’t come. Honestly, I came here for your help. Can you help me convince her? ”
Henna had a lump on her throat but she has to help her friend. She nodded.
“Count me in, buddy. I will help you convince her but, who is she anyway?”
Ret smiled more to her. She sensed that Ret had difficulty in telling her the girl but then…
“Just promise me, you’ll help me, ok?”
“Yes, I will.”
“So….. if I’m your friend…….”, he held her hand, “Can you be my partner for the event?”
Right after Ret said it, Henna felt like being choked. What? Did she just hear that this guy was picking her up as his partner? Was he insane? She snatched her hand from him.
“Pardon?”
“Well, I know this is ridiculous but you just promised me, right?”
“Yes, I just did but I was expecting you’ll pick someone who’s pretty, not me. So, you’re up to this again, huh? ”
Ret, feeling nervous still maintained his composure. He shook his head.
“Of course not, but can’t I pick my pretty friend for the ball?  If I’m your friend, then prove it. Prove our friendship by coming tomorrow.”
“Stop it, Ret. I can’t wear gowns and makeups. That will destroy my reputation.”
“I don’t care if you’ll wear tuxedo or anything there. Just be your best. I’ll give you something.”
“I’m not in the mood of playing games Ret. I’m not used to it.”
“This is all I ask from you, Henna. Common, it’s the graduation ball, we might part after this. Please.”, he begged.
Henna was hesitant at the moment,
“Ok. I’ll try……”
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The night of the graduation ball held at the university hall finally came and Ret was the only guy who stood out. He was so handsome in his black suit with his hair styled like Lee Min Ho’s. He was like a Hollywood star whose eyes were striking and his smile made all the girls scream. Their crush, as others would say. Some were dying to take him as their partner but he refused. Instead, he just let them take pictures with him but this did not make the worried Ret stop on thinking about Henna.
Ret waited for hours until unfortunately, it would be an hour to go before the dance will end. As he was standing at the stairs near the entrance, he realized Henna won’t come. Some of his friends went home already.
‘She broke her promise…..she didn’t care at all. I’m standing here like a fool.’he thought, disappointed.
He fought his tears as he headed back to his car when someone bumped on him, a lady. A careless lady.
“Whoa. Can you watch your steps, miss?“, he said but didn’t bother to look at her.
“Sorry… but is the event still going on? I’m very late, isn’t it?”, she was panting.
“You’re too late, Miss….”
And just when the lady looked up at him worriedly, his eyes opened wider…. at one moment, he felt an unexplanable happiness. He hadn’t seen such a beautiful lady during the night and she was just right in front of him. Seeing her as a breathtakingly beautiful woman made him hug her.
“H-henna….. is that you? I-I thought you won’t come.”, he said, stuttering.
Henna smiled to the poor boy and looked at him “And you think I’ll never come for my partner, huh? What’s that face? Do I look ridiculous with these?”, she was conscious.
“No.”,still hugging her tight, inhaling her fragrant smell. “Y-You look so stunning…I-I can’t believe I’m talking to a beautiful lady right now.”, Ret can’t find the words to say. Seeing Henna in her white dress, glamorous hairdo and a light make up made her the most beautiful girl in the event. It revealed her silky white skin and her sparkling eyes. She was so beautiful.
“I should look stunning because my best friend asked me, right?”, her smile was radiating.
“Y-You’re the most beautiful girl I’ve ever seen. Don’t you know that? I even expected you to wear a suit but you surprised me.”, he joked.
Henna laughed at the thought, “Yes, I could have done that but, I have my reason….”
“What is it?”
Silence filled the air as their eyes met. Henna found it difficult to tell him something he should have known earlier. It was as if the world stopped just for him and her. ‘Now’s the time’, she thought. She has to tell him straightway.
“I hate to say this Ret, but seriously…. I’m falling in love with you too.”
Henna felt her legs weakened. She thought this a million times and she was so sure of it. No more confusion. Ret looked at her with amazement. He tried to fight his emotions.
“You know I never stopped loving you, Henna. I broke my promise. I just can’t help myself thinking of you all the time.”, he confessed.
“Really?”, she blushed as Ret’s hands caressed her waists. It feels so good.
And so without knowing, their bodies got close to each other. Henna found Ret very irresistable when she realized they were now kissing in a cold, gray night. It was a long and passionate kiss. It was the kiss of longing. Heat electrified through her body as she took part of it. It was wonderful. After that, they were breathless. Ret’s eyes never leave the eyes of his beautiful princess. She looked so lovely.
“Henna?”
“Yeah?”
“Can you close your eyes for a moment?”, he whispered.
Henna’s heart was pounding. What would Ret show her?
And Ret pulled something out from his finger. He held Henna’s gentle hands.
“Henna, I’m giving this ring as a sign of my love.”
As Henna saw the ring, she remembered how important it is for Ret. This is the ring his late mother had given to him. It was a shiny silver ring with a little white diamond at the center. It was really beautiful but she can’t take it.
“I can’t take this Ret, this is important to you.”,
She gave it back but he refused.
“No, take this with you, Henna. Yes, that’s important for me but I know you can take care of it. That’s how I trusted you.”
Ret slipped his ring to her finger. It fitted just right for her. It was sparkling bright on her delicate hands.
“Wow. I’ve never seen such a lovely ring on my hand. Thank you.”, and she hugged him.
Suddenly, she felt feminine. She never felt like this before until Ret started it. It made her realized she could feel what other women felt and one of it is to be in love.
She saw Ret’s sincerity from the beginning and that hated her for being selfish she didn’t give him a chance. It would be few days before the graduation comes and they might not see each other as they will seek their own fortune.
“I love you, Henna and I’m willing to wait if I should.”
The last words struck her. She didn’t expect Ret would be so different from what she’d thought about him. The truth is, she changed him.
 “Henna Park, mind if I take you to the dance?”, he offered his hand, wishing he could dance her.
In her heart, she’s going to show who she really is. She won’t care for anything and no one will ever stop her. Even her father. It would be the start of a new her.
“Why not?.”, she answered as she gave her hand to him. Feeling fearless.
It was a chilly night. Its coldness shivering as two persons found some warmth from each others arms. Even though all eyes were glued to Henna, she didn’t seem to mind them. What matters most is that they’ll come to accept her.
“I’ll be by your side, Henna. I promise……..”, was the most reassuring thing she had heard as he sweetly kissed her forehead. “I love you.” 
As time passed, things were getting better for him and her. It’s so strange someone had the nerve to tell things straight to her because if it wasn't for him, she’ll not come to realize what could be her lost. At the first place, she never thought about love, she had never asked for it but it just came to her like an unexpected package. Truly, love changes everything. It moves in mysterious ways and no matter who you are, you’ll come to realize that someone is made to love just the way you are.